Van Barneveld reflects after career ends in first round at PDC World Championship: ‘It has been a nightmare end to a nightmare year’

Van Barneveld was understandably emotional afterwards; while giving Young credit, he admitted it wasn’t the befitting end he wanted and that he will ‘never forget’ his performance in losing to the American.

"The demons won again - I never felt comfortable in the whole match," said Van Barneveld.

"Darin played really well but I could not find anything and I am really disappointed.

"I had practised well and done everything I could to prepare but I didn't play anything like that on stage. I will never forget or forgive myself for this performance - it has been a nightmare end to a nightmare year."

Van Barneveld also spoke to Dutch TV station, RTL 7 afterwards; he called himself an ‘amateur’. As well as that nothing matters anymore in life now that he has had this ending to his career.

''It seems I'm just an amateur. I will never love myself. I will hate myself and I disgust myself. I don't care anymore, my whole life has no sense anymore. I will never forgive myself this. It's finished.''

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