Alan Soutar reached the Last 16 of the PDC
World Darts Championship before falling to Callan Rydz which he admitted saw a different feeling of emotions than before.
Soutar spoke post match as reported on Oche and admitted he felt like crying and wants to now learn from the likes of Gerwyn Price on how to deal with the crowd and dealing with emotions on the big stage.
“I just want to cry, I’m absolutely gutted. I didn’t turn up today at all. I’m pretty gutted about that," said the Arbroath ace.
“I won the first set, I should have just lost the first set like the rest of the games. But I’m just focusing on going back to work and seeing my family and start next year fresh.
“I got absolutely bossed there by Callan, no qualms about that at all.
“I’ve not played well all tournament and I got found out there. Good luck to him in the quarter-finals, he deserves a good run so fair play to him.
“He was brilliant. I was standing at the back thinking I can compete. I wasn’t good enough.
“It’s been a great learning experience and now I’ve got shifts payback at work so I’ve got to sort that out!
He added: “I’ve learnt that I’ve got a little bit of bottle. But I knew that anyway. I’ve got to learn to deal with the stage in there. It’s tough, really tough when they are singing against you.
“Gezzy knows how to deal with it, he performs at his top level still. But I don’t, I struggle out there.
“I’m soaking with sweat. I can feel it running down my back, down my front, my legs, my socks. I’m soaking.
“I’m just learning. I’m not really friendly with Gezzy, he doesn’t mix with me. If he’s got any words of advice for me, then I’d love to speak to him.
“When you lose you feel really low and down. I’ve now had both feelings, I just go back and process that and try and come back a little bit stronger."