Matthew Edgar does not see himself returning to the PDC circuit. After spending years on the PDC Pro Tour, he lost his PDC Tour Card in early 2022.
But after long-term injury issues where he said he can't even carry a bag of shopping in his right hand and can't feel the dart after a while of playing, he is looking for one final hurrah instead of returning to the PDC.
"I've sacrificed my life for this over the past 16 years to miss out on my children growing up and so many sacrifices. Just the past few weeks, for example, I said I've only been at home for five days. It's a battle but at the moment I'm coming out on top," said Edgar to Online Darts.
"The future is looking good but it's looking short. This isn't going to be along term thing, this isn't me saying I want to come and try and get a Tour Card again. I think that's in my past.
"That's more where I was. I'm loving commentating, I'm loving the media side."
He said that while he wants to return to the PDC, he knows he wouldn't be able to commit and sees Lakeside as more of a goal now.
"I want it to be ready rather than it be taken away from me. In my head, I'm thinking it's Lakeside.
"I can't do that tour, I can't do that schedule. I wouldn't be able to play all the events, I don't like doing things by halves. If I do something, I do it properly. I'd have to commit and I know it wouldn't last."
"I don't want that quality of life when you're living in that pain all the time. When I started I wanted to play in the UK Open, then it was the World Championship, then I wanted to keep my card and be in the top 64. I did all those."
"The one thing that was missing from my bucket list was the Winter Gardens and playing at the World Matchplay."
But his career trajectory will be short with Edgar despite only being in his mid 30's admitting that 2025 will be his end date.
"I don't go into 2025 that's how short I'm thinking. It's not just the years and years of darts, if I want to do something I can't just sit back and not do it. If I get an idea in my head, I hate living with regret."
"I can't deal with sitting there at 40/50 years old thinking I wish I would have done that so the wrestling, the MMA, the boxing, all the time compounding on the wrist. I always say I'm a 36 year old with a body of a 70 year old. I've lived a life in the fast lane and I wouldn't have had it any other way."