Wade isn't fully over frightening health scare: "I feel everything is up in the air a little bit around me at the moment"

The fall in form of James Wade has been of note after his frightening health scare earlier this year which he admits he isn't fully over and has seen him analyse not only his future in darts but his life choices.

“At the beginning of the year, it was good. I think I was probably the best player in the world for a month,” he told Daily Star Sport. “And then I wasn’t very well in Germany. I’m slowly getting back into it but it’s been a long, hard journey.

“It’s frightened me how ill I was. I don’t think many people realised how bad it was and what could have been in a 12-hour time window in Germany.

“It has made me think of things a bit differently and I’m having to reflect. I’m still not sure what I want to be doing, when I want to be doing it.

“I feel everything is up in the air a little bit around me at the moment. I’m just not sure where I’m going with life, that’s how I feel. It’s been a big change for me.”

But while not revealing what it is that made him go to hospital, he said it's something which is life-long and has a knock on effect in his life.

“I’m still not living healthy as I should,” added Wade. “I’ve got better but I’m still not doing things as I should. And in usual James Wade style, I’m finding excuses not to do it. This is one of the few times I shouldn’t be finding excuses, I should be getting on with it.

“It’s a life-long problem I’ve given myself. It is what it is and it’s my own doing. I just have to get on with it. I’ve got to try and not get as stressed as I do and live more healthily.

“With my problems as well [he suffers from bipolar and ADHD], I’m someone who gets stressed. That’s why I’m saying it’s up in the air, because doing something the same way for 40 years and then change it is hard.

“And there’s a knock-on effect, my family life, my job, my friendships, everything has suffered because I’m not quite sure where I should be.

But despite previously hinting at it, retirement is not on the cards for 'The Machine' due to financial elements and still having unfinished business.

“I’ve got a foreseeable future in it," he said. "I believe darts will be there for as long as I want it to be there. I’ve got no plans to walk away just yet. I’ve got a young family, I’ve got a mortgage and there’s still a few things I want to do.

“When I’m flying at the game, I enjoy it because it’s bloody easy and I love beating the favourites up. I get a buzz out of it, but when it’s hard it’s bloody hard, and it’s hard at the moment.

“But I’ll turn a corner, I’ve done it before and I’ll do it again.”