Burnett looks back on previous drugs ban in 2014: "It was the worst time in my life. I was constantly thinking about suicide"

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Thursday, 11 June 2020 at 07:56
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Richie Burnett became BDO World Champion in 1995 and is known as one of the best darting exports from Wales but his career has been affected by mental health problems.

He reflected on that World Championship final win against Raymond van Barneveld: "We were both very nervous. Beforehand you just want to get up there and get it on. That's the nerves kicking in that is," said The Prince of Wales on the Golden Arrows podcast.
"It was surreal, I had no emotion at the time. It was something that I wanted always. It doesn't hit you until a few weeks or months later. You are on a real high."
Also he spoke about Olly Croft and his relationship with the former chairman: "We didn't have a relationship, he was no good for the game and he said I was no good for the game. We knew we had massive differences and we were kept apart a lot I think."
Two years after his move over to the PDC, Burnett reached the World Matchplay final losing out to Phil Taylor; but his focus wasn't there: "I was drinking heavily; I wasn't really focused on darts. It was pot luck that sometimes I'd go far in a tournament. In hindsight, would I have done those things again? Knowing me I would have so I have no regrets."
Throughout his career, the 53-year-old has had problems with his mental health: "You don't realise you've had depression until a few years later. Some people have got anxiety problems and don't know they've got it. I've seeked help and know exactly what to do when it comes on again."

Ban from the sport

In 2014, Burnett was suspended for eighteen months; after he tested positive for cocaine at a Grand Slam of Darts Qualifier: "If I didn't do it, I wouldn't have got caught. I've accepted it. For the next two years, it was the worst time in my life. I was constantly thinking about suicide."
"Suffering depression, I gave them all that. I honestly thought I was there to be made an example of. 28 months I was banned for really that hurt as well; because they come in with one hand and take away with another.
Never heard from any player, not one. Probably only Barrie Bates but other players not one. There's a lesson learnt there; if you get caught you won't get any sympathy. None at all."
Burnett attempted Q-School this year but failed to claim back his Tour Card: "If I hit doubles, I can beat anybody. I'll keep going till I can't throw no more, I still love the game. I still love travelling; I like seeing life and being there."