Van Barneveld wants to finish career in Alexandra Palace: 'In the heat of the moment I only wanted to never feel that pain again'

He has now released a statement about this saying his private life has been troubled and this got the better of him. He went on to say he thought he let everyone down but that he wants to continue to the World Championship after his emotions dictated his original decision. “For months my life has been a rollercoaster of emotions,” said Van Barneveld in a statement released by the PDC. "In my private life there have been so many troubles, and as a dart player you try not to but you take all that with you on stage. "I was humbled that I was given the chance to play in the Premier League this year and really wanted to show everybody the true Barney, but it was only glimpses that I could give. "My personal problems got the better of me and I was always catching up to my opponents on stage. Yesterday all those emotions came together and I couldn't handle that at that moment. "I felt ashamed on stage in front of my family, my friends and the Barney Army. I felt I let everyone down and that pain was very hard to deal with. "In the heat of the moment I only wanted to never feel that again, but I realise that I should not speak out like that when I feel such raw emotion. "I want to end my career at Alexandra Palace during one final World Championship.”